Welcome to my CPTSD healing tools shop — practical workbooks, journals, focused tools, and one-on-one Trauma Matrix Guidance.
The Trauma Matrix is big. Your starting point doesn’t have to be.
Start with the path that fits what you need right now:
👉 Jump to the section that fits what you need right now:
Level 1 Foundation Curriculum — the complete Emotional Understanding, Agency Repair, and Identity Repair system
Start Smaller — individual Level 1 books and focused Agency Repair tools
Identity Repair — 7-day → 30-day → 90-day reflection system
Emotional Flashbacks — recognize and stabilize what’s happening
Body Literacy / Science Hacks — practical tools for body-based patterns
Quick Relief Tools — focused help for rumination, self-abandonment, trauma bonds, closure wounds, and more
Memoir + Companion — my personal stories, memoir work, and companion materials
Guidance With Jaena — work with me directly if you want help figuring out where to start
Want Guidance With Me?
You do not need to understand the Trauma Matrix. Nor do you need to buy a tool or the full Level 1 curriculum first.
Bring me what’s going on. We’ll slow it down, map the pattern, and figure out the most useful place to begin.
If we’re working inside Level 1, I can screen-share relevant workbook pages or tools during a 60- or 90-minute session and send you the piece we worked with afterward so you can continue on your own.
Choose the amount of room you need
30-Minute Trauma Matrix Clarity Session — $30
One immediate stuck point. We’ll identify what seems to be happening and clarify where to begin.
60-Minute Trauma Matrix Guidance Session — $60
More room to tell the story, map the pattern, and work directly with the part of Level 1 that fits.
90-Minute Trauma Matrix Deep-Dive Guidance — $90
For more complicated stories, several interacting patterns, or situations that need more time to untangle without rushing.
Escape the Trauma Matrix — Level 1 Full Foundation Curriculum
Emotional Understanding → Agency Repair → Identity Evidence
Level 1 brings together three connected parts of the work: understanding your emotional systems, rebuilding agency, and strengthening identity through lived evidence.
Choose the complete physical set or the digital pathway below.
Complete Level 1 Foundation — Physical 3-Book Set
$99 — save $37.97 compared with buying the three books separately through Lulu.
Prefer Digital?
The same complete Level 1 curriculum is available digitally in two bundles:
Both digital bundles together: $88.99 — save $23.99 compared with buying all five digital pieces separately.
Digital Bundle 1 (2 PDFs)
Emotional Resiliency + Escape the Trauma Matrix: Level 1
Digital Bundle 2 (3 PDFs)
Complete Identity Repair Journey
Level 1: Emotional Understanding + Agency Repair
Prefer to build Level 1 piece by piece? Start with one of the two foundation books or choose a focused Agency Repair tool.
Emotional Relliency
Available in digital and printed editions.
Escape the Trauma Matrix: Level 1
Available in digital and printed editions.
Wait, do I need the workbook and all five of these?
No.
The five focused tools below are already included inside Escape the Trauma Matrix: Level 1.
Choose them separately only if you want to work on one specific part of Agency Repair without purchasing the complete workbook.
Window of Tolerance
Catastrophizing
Come Down From Catastrophizing
Reward Predictor Reset
Poised Readiness™
Level 1: Identity Repair
The third foundation lane — build self-trust through the evidence of your own life.
Identity Repair uses a progressive reflection system:
7 days → 30 days → 90 days → Cycle-Down
You can begin with one stage or choose the complete journey.
1. Start here: Daily Check-In (7 Days):
2. Next: Recent Evidence (30 Days):
Available in digital and printed editions.
Available in digital and printed editions.
Prefer the Complete Journey?
Choose the digital trio or the complete physical edition with all stages combined into one coil-bound book.
The Emotional Flashback System
Recognize → Stabilize → Master
If emotional flashbacks feel overwhelming, start with the step that matches where you are now.
Am I Having an Emotional Flashback?
(Recognize what’s happening first)
Flashback Stabilization Toolkit
Body · Vision · Sound method
Get both together:
3️⃣ Flashback Mastery System (coming next)
Become Flashback-Free Using the Branches of Healing System + Parts Work)
Body Literacy / Science Hacks
Practical science-based tools for noticing body patterns and making sense of symptoms that are hard to explain.
Gut-Brain Detective Tool
Track symptoms. Spot suspects. Support your body. Improve doctor conversations.
Coming next: Nightmare Hacks + Neuroplasticity Training
Nervous system tools for sleep disruption, trauma-pattern interruption, and neuroplasticity training.
🛠 Quick Relief Tools: The Nuts & Bolts Section
For the pattern that needs attention right now.
Why won’t my mind stop replaying this?
Why do I say yes even when I don’t want to?
Why do I miss my abuser so much?
How do I move on when I have no answers?
Dealing With Both the Pull and the Lack of Closure?
My Origin Story & Guided Companion
Sixth-Grade Scandal tells the story of my early trauma and the beginning of my healing journey. The companion journal was created for readers who resonate with that story and want guided space to process shame, betrayal, and the impact of “nice” abusers in authority. This section is for those who found me through the memoir — or who prefer to work through healing alongside narrative.
Starting here?
Recommended if you plan to join the live book club–workshop experience or want both the story and tools together.
Already read the memoir?
Want to Work With Me Directly?
You do not need to purchase anything from the Tool Shop first. If you want help slowing down what’s happening, mapping the pattern, and working with it directly, you can book the amount of time that fits what you need.
30 minutes — $30
A focused starting point for one pattern, one tool, or figuring out your next step.
60 minutes — $60
More room to work through connected patterns, tools, or curriculum material together.
90 minutes — $90
For deeper guidance when several pieces are showing up at once or you want more time to work through what you’re uncovering.
We’ll walk through what’s happening and identify the best place for you to start.
Have a Question, Suggestion, or Experience to Share? If you’ve used one of my tools, I’d love to hear what stood out or helped something click. If you’re still trying to figure out where to begin, you’re also welcome to ask a question, tell me what pattern you’re trying to understand, or suggest a tool you wish existed. And if I already have an article or resource that may help you understand what’s going on, I’ll point you in that direction.
Your question or experience may also help someone else who’s standing here wondering where to begin.
As a survivor myself, the “highlight reel vs. the full movie” in The Survival Guide: Why You Still Want Them Back really stood out to me. Seeing the good and bad side by side helps bring the whole relationship back into focus. I wish I had this back then! 💜 Thank you, Jaena, for also donating your guide to DV survivors I work with.
Thank you, Lady Storm. 💜 I’m so grateful you shared this with the women you work with and gave me honest feedback from the people it was created for. I’m grateful for you, for the work you do, and for the way you’ve helped this tool reach people who needed it.