There’s a quiet grumble happening across the survivor community. People aren’t quitting healing — they’re just tired of it. I call it the healing burnout. They’ve done everything right: therapy, journaling, EMDR, shadow work, yoga, IFS, affirmations, forgiveness lists, moon rituals, and enough inner child meditations to qualify for dual citizenship in 1989. And yet, …
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Have you heard of Pete Walker’s 4F trauma types? They are: Fight, Flight, Freeze, and Fawn. Hence its name, 4F. You may know them as our trauma responses, and they most certainly can be. However, Pete Walker refers to trauma types because for those who were raised by cluster B disorders, we tend to develop …
Where I Am and Where to Grow Using the 4F Trauma Types Read More »
The memory keeper is not intentionally holding onto memories, they are simply those whose memories are without blank spots. They are able to recall without effort every trauma that they experienced and what they witnessed happening to others. There tends to be at least one in every dysfunctional family and it’s usually the scapegoat sibling. …
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Trauma attraction is having an attraction to those who make us feel in some way similar to how we felt when we were raised in an adverse home. It’s a failure to see the value in peace. That’s because when we’re raised in chaos, we learn how to cope in chaos. Dissociating was our only …
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Hyper-vigilance is a fear-based state of scanning for threats even in non-threatening situations. We tend to think of threats as the life-threatening kind. However, there are also the sort of threats that won’t hurt us physically and that’s why we often overlook these. We also tend to scan for threats to our emotional, mental, and …
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Setting boundaries and holding firm to them is the greatest challenge in our Complex-PTSD community. That’s because our self-abandonment programming tends to run our life. Until we do the healing work, of course. You see, behind our programming is toxic shame. And so, when attempting to assert, it tends to trigger a shame spiral, or …
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True story time. In 2014, I shared my dirty little secret with my therapist. “I don’t like helping people.” Yes, I – who considers myself a servant to my Complex-PTSD community and gets much satisfaction from doing so – once said and fully believed my own words. That’s how severe my self-abandonment programming once was. …
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Sometimes thoughts get stuck in our heads and then we can’t think of anything else. We know this as ruminating, and it happens to everyone. But in complex trauma, it’s amplified. Not only does it happen more frequently, but the emotional overwhelm keeps us stuck there longer. That’s why ours is called looping in Trauma …
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Repeated exposure to threats teaches us to be hyper-vigilant. When we have no control of these situations, they teach us that there is nothing we can do about it. In other words, learned helplessness. Our experiences teach us how we view ourselves and our outer world. And as par for the course, how much space …
Learned Helplessness: It’s the Fear of Thriving Read More »
Catastrophizing is what I refer to as False Prophet Syndrome. We imagine the worst case scenario and then it feels like a foregone conclusion. We lean into this prophecy, and give it our full attention. How could we not? There’s a threat up ahead! We see it so clearly in our mind’s eye. Terror grips …
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